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Out of The Darkness Suicide Prevention Walk 2007 [08 Sep 2007|01:38pm]

Hello to friends, old and new. I am once again walking in the Chicago Community walk of the Out of Darkness Suicide prevention walk. I am walking in honor of my mom, of course, and of all people who I have known to lose their life to mental illness. My goal for this walk is big, 1500 dollars, but I know that with support and optimism, I will meet my goal, just as I did last year. This walk is very important to me, both as someone who lost someone to suicide and as someone who struggles with mental illness personally. I appreciate any help and support that you are able to offer. Please know that it means a lot to me, and although I can not thank everyone personally, I hold a special place for all of those who support me in my heart. I will think of you as I walk with my head held high, my mom on my mind, and my head turned towards the future and how much good I can do by raising awareness of this critical issue.
Thank you so much!
Nikki Albrecht

Greetings friend,

I thought you might be interested in supporting Nicole Albrecht in the Community Walk taking place in Chicago, IL on September, 29 2007.

This link will lead you to an area where you may support them


july 19, 1958 to july 27, 2004 Rest in Peace Mommie Dearest [27 Jul 2006|12:59am]

I miss you, mom. I'd give anything for one more minute with you.

I wrote a poem in my personal journal. I wanted to post it here, but it may be triggering, so i'll let you guys decide if you want to read it or not. it's public...so, yeah.

it's almost one am...i have a long hard day ahead of me.

[14 May 2006|07:53am]

This morning has been just too painful to sleep through. No amount of pills will make this hurt go away. i love you, mommie dearest. and i miss you. more than i can ever say.

I read this poem at my mother's funeral. I read it so many times before and after i thought i had it memorized, but i didn't. i tucked it away, like so many other things, and about an hour ago, a frenzied search began. i had to find it.
i'm mourning for my mother today, i don't think i can celebrate her. i don't know if i'll make it to the cemetary with flowers. i don't know if i'll make it out of this room, out of this chair. i'm mourning my loss, and i'm mourning her loss, too. she was a motherless daughter, too. there's so much i wish i knew. so much i should've asked. but i was still so lucky to have her for as long as i did.
i can't breathe. it's beautiful outside.

This memory of my mother stays with me
Throughout the years: the way she used to stand
Framed in the door when any of her band
Of children left...As long as she could see
Their forms, she gazed, as if she seemed to be
Trying to guard-to meet some far demand;
And then before she turned to tasks at hand,
She breathed a little prayer inaudibly.

And now, I think, in some far heavenly place,
She watches still, and yet is not distressed,
But rather as one who, after life's long race,
Has found contentment in a well-earned rest,
There, in a peaceful dreamlike reverie,
She waits, from earthly cares forever free.

Remembrance by Margaret E. Bruner

[24 Feb 2006|03:13pm]

Just joined and wanted to say hi and give everyone *hugs*
My mom died suddenly in her sleep about a year and half ago. she had just turned 46 and i was 25.
My mom was my best friend. i miss her so much sometimes i can't stand it. we didn't always get along well when i was growing up, and she had problems - but since she died i've romanticized a lot and turned her into the perfect mother in my head. i wonder if thats a healthy thing to do or not. i dunno.
anyway, i'm always looking for new friends, and i've actually added a couple of you to my friend's list. hope that's ok. if anyone feels like adding me, i'll add ya back. we need all the friends and help and support we can get!
*more hugs*

[08 Oct 2005|09:44pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

Hey guys, I just started to notice something about me.

When I am sad or angry or just want to forget something about my mom or dad I think I dance, And i have been taking dance lessons since my mom died. Two days ago I got realy upset over something so stupid and I visously threw things with the music...SO many thoughts went threw my head and then I stopped and felt so relieved. Im a little bothered by the fact I didn't notice like 2 years ago...


NYC [31 Jul 2005|01:31pm]

[ mood | content ]

Today I have changed the user info page, and well posted of course. I went to new york a couple days ago and went to the church that every comes to see.I found my mother and Fathers name ,Joseph & Theres, and lit candles for both of them , and one also for my grandpa. I am 13 and I am parentless,I live with me sister and her boyfriend(there engaged)I relly tried not to cry but I did and I realized once again what was taken away from me aand what a big whole is in me. We then went around the city for awhile and i was very qiute.


[30 Jul 2005|05:47pm]

[ mood | calm ]

Ok guys A switched everything up soo...I think were good:)


[15 Jun 2005|03:49pm]

[ mood | BLAHHH!!!! ]

Lately everything has been going horibly wrong, all i want is my mom
Schools almost over , and i feel like i shouldnt go or something....I dont know i just feel like BLAH!!!


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